I have realized today that my stress relief activity of shopping is really actually just buying. Since my sizes have moved to unknown, i've had a hard time buying things!! Not because i don't know what styles i like, but because i don't know what size to buy. I now have to try on things... and i think i'm having a hard time knowing (or accepting?) that i should go to a lower size that i've never imagined i would wear... when you are the largest size, your only thought is "is it to tight or not?" Now, it's "is this the right fit or should i try one size down?" i feel like i've moved from a Go-No Go decision to a parametric sizing decision... which isn't quite as relaxing than the buying activities...
Sunday morning, before the mother's day activities, i'm going to try on, try on, and try on... hopefully resulting in 2 outfits and a pair of jeans that fit me...
This morning my scale read 179.0, btw... WOO-HOO!! love skinny colleen, as so many more clothing options!! :-) now, i just need to commit/buy...
Friday, May 6, 2011
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
.3 lbs to 21...
This morning I woke up at 179.2... second day in a row! i'm almost to the glorious 21 lbs. down point... though, i was starving on the way to work, so i had to stop and have an egg mcmuffin... booo... hopefully no impact to tomorrow's morning weigh in.
three more weeks until i get to do my blood work... the true test if my diet and exercise plan is doing what i really need to have happen... moving all of my measurements into the healthy range. crossing my fingers on that one!!
tonight at the gym was SUPER hard - my body is sore and tired!! but, my feet are healing, which is awesome!!
Sunday will be a new clothes shopping day, in preparation for Chicago awesomeness... i will definitely post pictures of my new Chicago outfits!! :-)
three more weeks until i get to do my blood work... the true test if my diet and exercise plan is doing what i really need to have happen... moving all of my measurements into the healthy range. crossing my fingers on that one!!
tonight at the gym was SUPER hard - my body is sore and tired!! but, my feet are healing, which is awesome!!
Sunday will be a new clothes shopping day, in preparation for Chicago awesomeness... i will definitely post pictures of my new Chicago outfits!! :-)
Sunday, May 1, 2011
YAY - It's Spriing!! :-)
This weekend i got to be outside SOOOOO MUCH and it was gooooooddddd... i have my first awkward sun shading... i'm hoping with less shade from my previous large chin, i can avoid the usual sad tanning i usually get each summer... we'll see! :-)
Today i was able to achieve something i've never done... After living in Fremont for the last 35 years, i have never made it to the top of Mission Peak, only the midway viewing locations... today, with 25,000 steps and 3.5 hours, i made it both up and down! so awesome!! i do have two massive blisters on my feet, which i taped up with my sports bandaid (after, of course, INCREDIBLE pain when shower water touched both of them...). I'm hoping that they don't impact my training tomorrow...
by the time i got off the peak, i was/am EXHAUSTED... resulting in the rest of my sunday spent on the couch. i can't think of a better way to end the weekend! Springtime, i've been SOOOOO waiting for you!!! :-)
Today i was able to achieve something i've never done... After living in Fremont for the last 35 years, i have never made it to the top of Mission Peak, only the midway viewing locations... today, with 25,000 steps and 3.5 hours, i made it both up and down! so awesome!! i do have two massive blisters on my feet, which i taped up with my sports bandaid (after, of course, INCREDIBLE pain when shower water touched both of them...). I'm hoping that they don't impact my training tomorrow...
by the time i got off the peak, i was/am EXHAUSTED... resulting in the rest of my sunday spent on the couch. i can't think of a better way to end the weekend! Springtime, i've been SOOOOO waiting for you!!! :-)
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
I'm back!!!
this morning i weighed in at 180.4!! i think, after my gym awesomeness tonight, i will be back in the 179's tomorrow morning... woo-hoo!! my trainer thinks my weight gain was due to sodium eating, rather than actual poundage... possible with the soy sauce/sushi on Friday... either way, i feel good again... this morning, i was actually at the last loop on my belt!! yay!!
tomorrow i'm taking a gym break as i'm physically and mentally exhausted... but i will do my 500 jumps, either tomorrow night or Thursday night in the garage gym! :-)
Next Monday is my annual physical... i hope that i rock it in all possible ways! because seriously, i cannot do more with this weightloss than i'm currently doing!
tomorrow i'm taking a gym break as i'm physically and mentally exhausted... but i will do my 500 jumps, either tomorrow night or Thursday night in the garage gym! :-)
Next Monday is my annual physical... i hope that i rock it in all possible ways! because seriously, i cannot do more with this weightloss than i'm currently doing!
Monday, April 25, 2011
Re-Grouping and Re-Focusing...
OMG - i have moved back to 182.4 in the last four days... i blaming chris and easter, oh and being sick resulting in my not having any healthy food choices at home!
but in truth, i hit my half way point of -20#'s and thought "lets' take a mini-break"... bad, bad, bad... so, on Sunday after eating BAD BAD BAD food for breakfast with Chris at La Pinata, i gave myself a strong talking to about getting back on track. and so i went grocery shopping for some healthy food choices, and then i finally pulled out my jump rope and did 500 jumps in the garage. I'm thinking of setting a new goal of 1k jumps per week...
Anyways, today, i got back on track with bringing my lunch to work, and pounding it out at the gym. it felt really good!!
i'm thinking about expanding my garage gym... with a stabilization ball and a mat for abs work... i'm kinda liking the garage gym!!
anyways, onward from here... oh, and July was marginally fascinated by the jump roping for about 5 minutes, and then retired to her napping location... :-)
but in truth, i hit my half way point of -20#'s and thought "lets' take a mini-break"... bad, bad, bad... so, on Sunday after eating BAD BAD BAD food for breakfast with Chris at La Pinata, i gave myself a strong talking to about getting back on track. and so i went grocery shopping for some healthy food choices, and then i finally pulled out my jump rope and did 500 jumps in the garage. I'm thinking of setting a new goal of 1k jumps per week...
Anyways, today, i got back on track with bringing my lunch to work, and pounding it out at the gym. it felt really good!!
i'm thinking about expanding my garage gym... with a stabilization ball and a mat for abs work... i'm kinda liking the garage gym!!
anyways, onward from here... oh, and July was marginally fascinated by the jump roping for about 5 minutes, and then retired to her napping location... :-)
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Work and Working Out Balance..
Lately my motto has been "If it's not work or the gym, I've not been doing it". This week, I actually had after work activities on Tuesday and Wednesday, and gymmed on Monday and again today... Today was my weakest workout since i started training!:-( All of the weights felt so heavy, and i barely could do a single pull up or push up on my own... i don't know what was wrong with me! I just felt so exhausted!!! physically and psychologically exhausted. I only wanted to just sit on my couch, and watch bad TV... not talk, not move, not think...
I was super embarrassed in front of my trainer due to my lack of effort tonight! :-( So, i'm thinking that during the week days, work and gym may be the best i can do... maybe one additional social activity night... but i can't do two and two nights of training... i just don't have the energy. :-(
oh well... next week i'll be back to my old training schedule... and if the weather stays pretty... maybe i'll be able to fit in a swim lap or two this weekend... so happy to see Friday at last...
I was super embarrassed in front of my trainer due to my lack of effort tonight! :-( So, i'm thinking that during the week days, work and gym may be the best i can do... maybe one additional social activity night... but i can't do two and two nights of training... i just don't have the energy. :-(
oh well... next week i'll be back to my old training schedule... and if the weather stays pretty... maybe i'll be able to fit in a swim lap or two this weekend... so happy to see Friday at last...
Monday, April 18, 2011
I have arrived...
at the 170's!!! :-) this morning i weighed in at 179.2 lbs! yay. Tonight, the gym kicked my a**!!!! I only made it through 2.75 sprints at the end of the workout, but i did all the other weights. Still disappointing... i can't seem to get to 3 sprints during training!
The last time i was in the 170's, i was in college... the last time i was in the 150's (my ultimate goal) i was in highschool. In both cases, i don't remember ever having to work at it, i just remember that it just was... and now, at 36, i have to work so hard for it! if ever there was any doubt at how the metabolism changes as you get older, that doubt should now be erased!
here is my interesting observation of the day... every guy i have ever spoken to about this challenge and weight loss, always ALWAYS offers up their weight numbers... their heaviest and what they are today. I find that really interesting, because i don't share ANY of my numbers! i feel like even if i weighed 110 lbs., i probably wouldn't ever say anything... all afternoon i've wondered why that is... other things that people are really private about, i am not (like money/salary), but for this, i won't talk about it... i'm still not sure why i don't want to share it with others... maybe when i get to 150 i'll shout it out in normal conversation! :-) or i'll go to therapy to understand why... :-)
In July news, for the last hour, i've been attempting to take a picture of July using my PS3 controller as a pillow, but she keeps waking up and moving. by the way, SO HAPPY to learn that the PS3 remote doesn't have to be plugged in! :-) thank you Roma!!
The last time i was in the 170's, i was in college... the last time i was in the 150's (my ultimate goal) i was in highschool. In both cases, i don't remember ever having to work at it, i just remember that it just was... and now, at 36, i have to work so hard for it! if ever there was any doubt at how the metabolism changes as you get older, that doubt should now be erased!
here is my interesting observation of the day... every guy i have ever spoken to about this challenge and weight loss, always ALWAYS offers up their weight numbers... their heaviest and what they are today. I find that really interesting, because i don't share ANY of my numbers! i feel like even if i weighed 110 lbs., i probably wouldn't ever say anything... all afternoon i've wondered why that is... other things that people are really private about, i am not (like money/salary), but for this, i won't talk about it... i'm still not sure why i don't want to share it with others... maybe when i get to 150 i'll shout it out in normal conversation! :-) or i'll go to therapy to understand why... :-)
In July news, for the last hour, i've been attempting to take a picture of July using my PS3 controller as a pillow, but she keeps waking up and moving. by the way, SO HAPPY to learn that the PS3 remote doesn't have to be plugged in! :-) thank you Roma!!
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